Another start. Another year. 2013.

Looking back on 2012, I realize how lucky I am. God has blessed me with so much to be thankful for. A great family, great roommates, great friends, and a great town to live in. I have a family that loves and supports me no matter what crazy thing I feel called to next. I have roommates that put me in my place, tell me when I should or shouldn't do something. I live in a town where I can be apart of the crazy busyness of life at school and in Young Life, but I can also escape to the mountains for some peace and quiet when things get just a little too much to handle.

Most importantly, I have a Great God.

         This year, I struggled a lot with figuring out what desires were mine and what were from God. I asked myself the questions of, "What the heck do you want me to do now? Am I doing the right thing?" a lot. I stopped trusting God at many times to take control of my life, just to watch myself fail. I then run back to God, realizing that I should of never taken control in the first place.
         A couple days or weeks later, the questions would come again.
         The process then repeats itself.

But then, I realized what my problem was. And then got mad at myself for not realizing it sooner:
   - I was not making my time with the Lord daily a priority.
Now that is hard to say out loud. How can I push God to the side? How come I put my time with the great King of Kings aside for things that won't matter later down the road?
As a normal human being, I realize that I'm going to keep failing. But I also realize that if I don't discipline myself to spend the time daily with the Lord that I need to have a growing intimacy with God, that the questions will keep coming and the days will soon get harder.

Now, re-reading that, I kinda feel like I am being harsh on myself. However, we need to be! Why wouldn't we fight for time with God himself? He wants us so badly to sit is His Word and be with him through prayer and devotion.

One thing will always remain.

 We go through life year after year, make new friends and leave behind old ones, from one school to the next, from one ministry to the next, from one church to the next. Life on earth is keeping us in constant change.

The beauty of God is, He stays the same. He is the ONLY thing that remains constant in our lives.

 "Whatever is good and perfect comes to us from God above, who created all heaven's lights. Unlike them, He never changes or casts shifting shadows" (James 1:17).

Just another reason why my God is awesome.